God does not instantly reply...

I always thought I really understand things but I was wrong.
God has the most valid reason why our prayers are not answered. He has His own time to answer those questions and when that time comes, you'll be surprised (better yet amazed); God answers in perfect timing.

RANTS

Rants, rants and rants.

Signs and Symptoms

I appreciate most of the things in life. Every little facts. The smallest creature. Maybe the poem "All things are beautiful" I recited when I was in First Grade is stucked to my brain like a gum.
I appreciate that when I will be having a period there will be intolerable pain first as a warning sign...great, it helps me realize that my pituitary or whatever glands are working with my hormones. I appreciate that when the weather is too humid, the rain will comeby tomorrow and that would make me so happy. I appreciate that most of the things in human being's life have warning signs; have symptoms.
But why there's none when you came to my life? I anticipated we will break apart but I can't seem to see the symptoms yet. The message are loud and clear. You and I doesn't exist anymore. But there was no warning signs. I wanted to know, when exactly did it happen?

Laugh of the day!

Stinky Blanket

stinky blanket
here he comes
stinky blanket
how soiled you are

stinky blanket
fabric unrecognized
look how soiled you are

stinky blanket
please do me favor
warm the husband
wherever you are

iscikedelic 3-20-2009

N.R. Hedlind

W-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-L

Haven't posted for a long time here...
Busy running OSC and sometimes forget life's basics like eating chocolates (ha ha)! Good thing I don't need to worry about getting fatter than I'd been couple of months....although it's Rochelle's birthday, chocolate cake eating is a must.
Don't want to look in the past anymore...the tragedy...I'm just thankful that I survived with good state of mind...only I'm such a potato-head!
Last night, my husband serenades me again...it's w-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l.
I hope I can show my love like he does.
--------------------------------------------------------------xxx

chewing gUm

5 days to go before I go...

AFTER SOMETIME..after so many once upon a times there will finally be, one single story that stands out. It was my story with Jeremy.

HAPPILY N'VER AFTER

IT's a ColD SuMmer niGhT

have you ever been through this?

YUMMY

Leo - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're almost always the center of attention - and easy for potential dates to spot Your happiness and optimism is appealing to all... and contagious! You don't hold grudges - getting over little fights is no problem for you Your negative traits: You tend to ignore relationship problems, until they are too big to handle You crave luxury, and you are disappointed with partners who can't provide you with it If someone does you wrong, you'll coldly and cruelly break their heart Your ideal partner: Someone high status enough to bring you more attention - but not so great that they upstage you Makes you laugh and brings excitement to everything you do together Is aggressive and confident enough to butt heads with you every so often Your dating style: High expectations. You need to be impressed with an incredible first date for a second one to occur. Your seduction style: You like to make the first move - you're fearless about initiating things Passionate. You really get into any intimate act. Aggressive. Most of the time, you find yourself wanting sex more than your partner. Tips for the future: Try to not need so much attention. You'll feel less ignored, guaranteed. Learn to love your partner for who they are - not how they help advance your life. Let your partner shine occasionally. You don't always have to be the alpha dog. Best color to attract mate: Gold Best day for a date: Sunday

What's Your Love Profile?

You're a Freaky Kisser

When you kiss, you want to experience something new A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing... And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable There's no saying where your tongue or hands will go

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

If there is a lyric of a song that best describes me now, it will be:


Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tooth ache!

Umiiyak lang ako pag masakit ang ngipin.

VTR

Whoa! Got Rizal's VTR website.

They are the truth even if it is not correct.

-J.T.H.

some thoughts

“Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth."

I need bratwurst.

LARGER THAN LIFE!

I am larger than life. Taking new phase.

Seems I am on a limbo floating, gravity is overpowering. I’m so uncool now. Losing focus. Losing myself. Want to scream, want to rebound my head on the wall. Maybe I am dreaming. Still have my sanity in me but it's akin to brains freeze, I'm going c-r-a-z-y! I am on the brink of “can’t believe” chapter of my life. Wake me up. Shake me up…’Want to get back, want to start with focus, with no hallucination…stop being crushed by the romantic thoughts in your head, Nerissa.

Wuda, Cuda, Shuda..he told me it's about regretting into something...so that's what those words meaning…Wuda, Cuda, Shuda?? NO. If I could turn back time, if I could go ahead to the future, you you you will always be the person I want to be with my lifetime.
Time to face it. Time to focus. No laziness, no later. My life now is similar to a tale waiting to be told someday. Mystery always captivate me, I felt my reservations makes me mysterious. Enough! My so-called self-mystery needs to divulge coz I already gave up, trusted my life to somebody now. No uncertainty. Life with him…no matter what kind of life it is, no matter how surprising it is, no matter how different it is from the life I had. I’m not a risk-taker. I’m not hardheaded. I’m not a rebel. I always believe in conformity but it’s time to believe in to something that I don’t know. It’s time to welcome changes in my life. I just wish I would never forget loving myself too. Never forget loving myself....and give myself the happiness I know I deserve.

"And I will still, forever believe in Ever After...with you"