LARGER THAN LIFE!

I am larger than life. Taking new phase.

Seems I am on a limbo floating, gravity is overpowering. I’m so uncool now. Losing focus. Losing myself. Want to scream, want to rebound my head on the wall. Maybe I am dreaming. Still have my sanity in me but it's akin to brains freeze, I'm going c-r-a-z-y! I am on the brink of “can’t believe” chapter of my life. Wake me up. Shake me up…’Want to get back, want to start with focus, with no hallucination…stop being crushed by the romantic thoughts in your head, Nerissa.

Wuda, Cuda, Shuda..he told me it's about regretting into something...so that's what those words meaning…Wuda, Cuda, Shuda?? NO. If I could turn back time, if I could go ahead to the future, you you you will always be the person I want to be with my lifetime.
Time to face it. Time to focus. No laziness, no later. My life now is similar to a tale waiting to be told someday. Mystery always captivate me, I felt my reservations makes me mysterious. Enough! My so-called self-mystery needs to divulge coz I already gave up, trusted my life to somebody now. No uncertainty. Life with him…no matter what kind of life it is, no matter how surprising it is, no matter how different it is from the life I had. I’m not a risk-taker. I’m not hardheaded. I’m not a rebel. I always believe in conformity but it’s time to believe in to something that I don’t know. It’s time to welcome changes in my life. I just wish I would never forget loving myself too. Never forget loving myself....and give myself the happiness I know I deserve.

"And I will still, forever believe in Ever After...with you"